Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Rambling La la la la :p

Aku dah type 2 perenggan tadi tapi aku delete sebab aku rasa awkward gila nak tulis blog

Owh, kenapa aku lama tak update blog? Sebab aku lebih jatuh cinta dengan membaca dari menulis (please noted perkataan lebih tu), aku rasa past months ni aku dah habiskan lebih 21 buku (counting sampai subuh tadi) be it crime, thriller, history or fantasy. Aku baca semua, and ada satu stage tu I sleep and in my dreams I see words. Aku try to slow it down by not starting a new book when I already finished sebab once I start I will hook up dan mulalah aku membaca sambil satu tangan goreng nasi atau satu tangan suap roti. If only Im as this enthusiastic bila study muahahaha..

Sekarang aku tenggelam dalam Lincoln Rhyme series by Jeffrey Deaver, already read 6 of his series. Awesome! Plot yg pantas and twisting! I love it, aku rasa this one even better dari my Kay Scarpetta collection. Anne dah promo Mr Deaver to me dari last year lagi, I hold myself from starting sebab aku taknak start my crazy obsession trying to find the books and burn my pocket. Sampailah April lepas, my first visit to Sunday market, I found The Bone Collector, the first dalam Lincoln Rhyme series for 2 dollars. For me, bila aku start my reading frenzy, and I start it with the first book lagi it give me a better kick, macam I need to finish it. The same applies to movies as well. Sebab tu aku into Harry Porter movie lepas diorang release goblet of fire, sebab aku dah marathon Harry Porter sama dengan Wafri (more to dia bermain2 dengan chopstick as magic wand dan aku je layan movie sorang2 sambil pura2 mati bila kena curse). Tiba2 aku rasa macam aku ada weird obsession to do things in order, which sebenarnya tak cause im the lousiest in organizing things.

Aku mula part time work aku once a week, job that people seems to disgust and look down too. I don’t know bout you but seems to me that what my family thinks. Hee, one of them also give me silent treatment till I quit. I’m kind of happy with the arrangements actually and the family is lovely. It fit my time and somehow it also feels like a challenge to me. I feel humble, it’s like I’m a princess and suddenly disguise as maid, and it thrills me. That kind of feeling. Been trying to explain that to my family but they are so worried bout my safety etc etc, other reasons seems not rational. Probably not rational too, probably I’m the one who being rebellious here. Doing something just for the sake of to go against. Please pardon my inappropriate rambling. Hee.

Talking about work, it bring me to $$. Since my plan to go to China late this year, I ve been looking to buy a new camera. Of course I can buy the 199 one, with 7mp. That is good enough. But somehow I want something else, I want a DSLR though I don’t know whats the difference between aperture and ISO settings. Trying to set white balance on lab microsope already give me headache, and complicated camera will certainly not suit me at all. But I want it, like really want it. So I bought it last Monday, and probably get it on Friday. I’m excited, tapi bila aku fikir, owh the money could better spent on something or someone else aku rasa tak best and mulalah my guilt haunts me.
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I have a car now too. Nick gave his’s to me, I named it LAU, as tua in mandarin, isn’t it Miin? For car age, this bloke here is a senior citizen. But it still running, so I’m not complaining. Holden Camira, 1984. Bryce from my floor jokingly said, ‘Wow, station wagon, planning to carry any coffin soon?’ Yea right Bryce. Owh that’s a thought. I should apply a part time job at funeral house then, what’s the word for it? I forget, not crematorium, something else. Now with Mal, Joslin and Nick gone, the crusty group (as we named it) is really quiet. Hee kind of missing Nick too, despite all the arguments, he is a nice friend. One of my closest here. Going out crabbing won’t be the same after this. He is chatty but in a nice kind of way. A must topic for him is Roman Empire. He so fascinated about it and just need to let the load of information out. See how you appreciate people when they are not around anymore?

Hari tu aku dan Miin pergi tengok wayang dengan Anne dan anaknya. We arrived like 5 mins before the movie start, I q for jajan and asked Miin, eh Anne dah beli tiket. Miin angguk. When they are checking tickets, aku tunjuk Anne. Dalam wayang, Miin tanya, eh nak kena bayar berapa? I said tanyalah Anne. Turn out Anne tak beli pun tiket kitorang and Miin nodded for the jajan I bought. Muahahaha. Nasib la wayang kat sini takde seat number tau. So wayang free that day :p


What else that I didn’t update?

I’ve been together with orang sebelah benua for 7 years. How these years change us? For me certainly he highly influences me, small thing can easily make me happy, little things can easily make me upset. We are more mature I guess, more in love than ever. Glad he is still here with me, thank you luv.

My pendekar is coming back this Sunday, my oh my 6 months already passed. He going to go after me for all the chapters I promised before he went to Spain. Hee oki doki pendekar. Owh study wise, aku dalam writing stages dengan labwork berbaki satu lagi which aku tak leh nak sambung yet sebab out of season.

So how’s this for 3 months update? :p

Thursday, June 18, 2009

have you ever want something so much that you will only be happy if you have it?

kalau lepas ni aku tak makan 2 bulan, bahagialah aku

Monday, May 25, 2009

Happy Birthday

I want to wish my May friends, who always bring joy in my life, Happy Birthday. Somehow, Taurus click well with me.

To mmy which is heavily 9 months and 5 days pregnant now, I wish all well and I cant wait to recruit the newbie :p I am very very happy for both you and Yusri. You make me realize, the glow that you have is something that I havent seriously consider before.

To miss @, thank God, for sending her to me, wish our rocking plan this year will materialize, cant wait! The happiness is within self, those who fail to find is those who fail to seek. Wish happiness will always be with you and all your dreams will come true. I'll be here to share.

To just me, I still vividly remember we both laying on the beach, watching the stars and the moon, or singing our heart out during our long driving trips. Past months have been harsh on you, but I hope time will wash it all. As you said once, To be strong is just not to endure or to fight but also to let go.

To mr reiji, I'm filled with embarassment, after being kicked out to the ocean, I'm still looking back to the island. As wise man says, the future belongs to people who believe in their dreams. Hope you always believe in yours bro.


Love,
Kyora

Friday, May 22, 2009

I want more moneyy

Langkah 1 -pagi ini- 1030


Berjaya!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Salmon on sale and medibank macam celaka


guess we cant have too many good things at one time..


tummy in agony,
kyora

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

behind or infront

We had some food then leisurely walk through the mall, shop by shop or shall i say boutique by boutique? I was lost in their conversation neither would I understand why a normal jogger still made in china would cost so much. I was in my best dress that I could find for my date that day with org sebelah benua and yet I still feel ridiculously awful beside my friends who are so casual in their short and top. Not to mention, my sandal looks ugly beside their roxy selipar jepun thong. I was so confused and try my best to blend in but I surrender, I just smiled along the way, nodding in agreement whenever they showed some dress to me. I am without doubt only a Jusco girl or the best place in my town, Fajar. A Fajar girl I am.

Deep under my confuse mind, I'm little bit envy.

I still talked like I used to talk years back, but they said I'm more calm and composed. They were deciding either one piece or two piece will be best for their trip to amazing island on weekend (of course I will not able to go), I couldnt picture myself in that. But still I'm envy. One of them excused herself for a while for some nicotine, I am still envy.

You will say I envy them for whole lot wrong reason.

I am envy on how free they are. How they carried themselves and confidence with it. How they taking their life to the fullest while I'm still not feeling comfortable with what I wear or where to go. How their life seems have no boundaries and they fly, fulfilled their dreams and fun accompany them. And me thinking, owh my fun is too much, should limit myself. When I'm already at edge, my phone keep ringing, with my mum checking on me. Man, I'm 26.

I was scared as well if what bound my friends and I are only the memories we shared back in school years. What we have in common is only that piece of memories and I am no longer invited into their lives because I'm more mature than them, I carried a sign board that I'm a damn PhD candidate and thus I'm different now. I know I'm still that old Yo.

I also know that I'm the one who being anxious and as usual thinking way to serious on how people see me and what is me in their eyes. I know they love me as much as I love them and me being here of course limit me from the circle. Can't wait to see all my convent babes again and hell this time I'm not gonna miss any party okiesh!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Aku di library, menanti Miin membalas sms confirm pukul berapakah dia nak kutip aku nih. Kitorang nak pergi ke Amays butcher kejap lagi, bawak budak2 msia yang baru sampai beli daging halal. Owh, aku lupa nak cerita. Iya. Ada 9 pelajar baru tajaan MARA dan JPA di sini. Aku terkesima. Happy! Sebab raya tahun ni boleh pergi open house yeaa!!

Adik2 *sigh* (mereka membuatkan aku merasa tua.. owhh) sampai sabtu lepas, tapi sebab aku busy dengan no 7 aku itu, aku dapat jumpa diorang khamis? rabu? ari tu saja. Kelakar aku rasa, sebab masa 1st salam laga2 pipi tu aku rasa kekok gila. Aku lupa syarat salam laga pipi tu kena 3 kali. Kanan kiri kanan. Mungkin kita kena buat syarat baru kanan dan kiri saja. Atau sekali kanan saja. Kerana kalau kau kena salam 10 org, tengkuk boleh lenguh. Aku ingat masa aku pergi kursus btn, bila last semua kena kumpul dalam bulatan dan salam menyalam. Salam style laga pipi 3 kali. Ada lebih seratus orang aku kira. Lebih malang lagi, aku orang terakhir dalam bulatan itu. Badan aku tegak aje berdiri, kepala saja yang keluar2 ke depan.

Pagi tadi aku buat breakfast nasi lemak. Aku panggil Miin, apa barang makan best sorang2 kan? Miin baru balik jogging, perut dia sungguh flat sekali. Aku jealous, nasi lemak terus rasa tawar. Damn. Malam ni ada birthday party Anne, aku jarang-jarang boleh tolak cake. aku harap cake itu tidak halal, supaya aku boleh tak makan. Owh menyebut tentang halal, aku beli kasut yang haram 2 minggu lalu. Pure leather. Leather bab*. Aku beli 2 kasut, dua dua di linekan kulit binatang itu. Aku tidaklah geli. Tapi aku rasa tertekan sebab kasut tu cun giles (ada s sebab plural). Aku pergi tukar dengan Jos, dia ambil 2 pasang kasut yang lain untuk kakak iparnya di India. Owh nama kedai itu RIVERS. Lain kali bila aku pergi beli kasut, aku nak pakai sarung tangan, boleh belek2 sesuka hati, dan tidak menanggung rasa tak best memikirkan aku makan burger straight lepas beli kasut tu.

Miin dah sampai. Aku nak beli steak kejap lagi. Aku dah suka makan steak sekrang, lebih2 lagi kalau ia dimasak rare atau separuh rare sahaja.